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#ramo-today #passing-thoughts @wonder

Does it matter to you if you don't get what you want but have what you need?

How much does it motivate you to go get it instead some other way?

Also, when you really are just handed something, do you still appreciate it?

I do, but I appreciate the opposite too- something that takes a while to accomplish.

— a happy spirit

Hello! Testing one two.

— a happy spirit

Via Sayed:


After dinner pondering : Via https://www.facebook.com/goldenlightsayedadli

- The creation myth in ancient Egypt formed the nucleus of the ontology of ancient civilizations. Myths talk about facts, that is, about eternal cosmic events that occurred in the divine / sacred realm, that divine world is the true / absolute world, and some events that occur in the world of time and space have a metaphysical significance, and in order to understand the symbols of the ancient Egyptian civilization, we must adopt a method.

Thinking in the mind of the ancient Egyptian, which is closer to the spirit of nature, so that ideas flow flexibly within each other in a relationship of containment instead of each of them standing alone in the face of other ideas.

The first recorded evidence of the creation story, in which Atum plays the role of the Creator God, was found in the body of the pyramids. In one of the texts there was a text explaining that relationship, where the text says: “Greetings to you, Atum ...

Greetings to you, my news, you who came into existence.

By yourself, you who created yourself ...

You rose in the form of a high hill ... You came into existence and your name was my khubraa. “

[^]Me: who was khubraa ?

==Interesting== snippet of stuffs!

— a happy spirit

A great many of you are suffering from a degree of this- we all do ~ it’s a consequence of a modern mechanized westernized “fast-world.”

It happened to me too and I have been undoing it over a decade.

This post is about human nature, not you or anyone specifically, evidently as this is my blog and not a comment on a social network or a private dialogue.

We have a a society become too engrossed or mesmerized in our own logic and intellect.. what is happening inside your mind.. these facts and such clog your ability to routinely relate to other aspects of your emotional intelligence.

Anyway.. the intellect is a slave to the identity.. move on that later and hope those emotions in large part may guide the direction of your life.

Beingness and Presence

/ or Presence is Immutable, you cannot lose it- it is always with you, waiting for you to stop tuning into your mental chatter, and simply be there to start noticing it. Here.

This will be good for you if there’s an openness to understand perhaps an aspect or two of the true nature of the self – in regards to how very very very difficult it is to live in the year 2021 as an emotionally healthy and wholly functional person.

If this doesn’t apply to you don’t personalize it of course and smile and carry on.

With love,


(I may add things like a few more links to this later.)

auxiliary supporting links for you:

  • :–) smile ! You are the missing link!

— a happy spirit

However, in “The Shadow over Innsmouth” (1931),Lovecraft writes of the isolated and decaying, Massachusetts seaport of Innsmouth as being the home of The Esoteric Order of Dagon, “a peculiar secret cult which had gained force there and engulfed all the orthodox churches”.

The Order is in fact the organized basis for a clandestine traffic with the Deep Ones,amphibious, frog-like, fish creatures of great age and intelligence.

“Father Dagon” appears to be regarded as the progenitor of these beings, of whom it is said that “some day,if they remembered, they would rise again for the tribute Great Cthulhu craved.

”The role of Dagon in the so-called Cthulhu Mythos is finally rationalised by August Derleth in “The Lurker at the Threshold”, (1945).

Here it is established that the Water-Being Cthulhu “was greater than Dagon, that Dagon and his Deep Ones served him.”Nevertheless, the presence of Dagon among the more outré Disciple of Dagon entities of Lovecraft’s writing has both puzzled and intrigued Lovecraftian scholars and enthusiasts.

For example, both Robert M. Price and Will Murray have recognized in Lovecraft’s early representation of Dagon, a prototype for the later manifestation of Cthulhu. As regards the purpose of the esoteric order bearing his name, Price believes that, “Dagon”is simply a familiar and appropriate name from the Old Testament chosen to mark the secret worship of unknown Cthulhu”

Murray, noting that Lovecraft describes the order as “a debased, quasi-pagan thing imported from the East a century before”, acknowledges “that Dagon worship was often mentioned in derogatory fashion in the Bible”, and that this was the most likely source for Lovecraft’s use of the idea ofDagon2.Perhaps the key passage to all of this occurs in “The Shadow over Innsmouth”, where the main informant of the town’s secret worship, the aged, half-crazed Zadok Allen, raves about;

“Wrath o’Jehovy – I was a mighty little critter, but I heerd what I heerd an’ seen what I seen – Dagon an’ Ashtoreth -Belial an’ Beelzebub – Golden Caff an’ the idols o’ Canaanan’ the Philistines – Babylonish abominations – Mene, menetekel, upharsin...”

There are in this passage a number of themes that have obsessed the western consciousness, inculcated as it is with the literature of the Bible. They have infiltrated into the subconsciousness of even the most avowedly rationalistic and anti-religious of individuals, and Lovecraft himself, crystallised some of these obsessions to an exceptional degree.

By the use of the term “Babylonish abominations” it is uncertain whether Lovecraft had in mind a specific reference re – Disciple of Dagon to the Deep Ones, but it does evoke the entire panorama of strange gods and ancient nightmares, embodying forbidden spheres of experience that are outside the established boundaries of Judeo-Christian practice and authority.

It is the nature of such authority, that it continually strives to suppress and eliminate the validity of the ancient deities, it seeks to mock them and render them null; the names become dead, but the energies which they embody remain sentient within the deeper levels of the subconsciousness of humanity.

Lovecraft encapsulated this awareness in the famous ritual expression of “In his house at R’lyeh dead Cthulhu waits dreaming.”

On this basis it becomes clearer to recognize that the relationship between Cthulhu and Dagon is much closer than has been considered previously.In the First Book of Samuel, chapter five, there is an account of how the magical power of Yahweh overcomes that of Dagon.

The Philistines capture the Ark of the Covenant and take it to Ashdod, to place it as a trophy in the temple of Dagon. Next morning, the statue of Dagon is found prone on the ground before the ark; it is replaced, but on the following morning it is found not only prone before the ark, but with its head and hands cut off and lying on the threshold of the temple. The“Wrath o’ Jehovy” falls upon the Philistines, their god is shown to be impotent, and they suffer various plagues and calamities before they are able to return the ark to the Israelites.

.. interesting book...

— a happy spirit

(ions). is an abbreviation, metaphor, an actual thing, and a representation in macro and micro, but none of that is important!

consider listening to this video.... I like this guys style. He is slow. slow slow slow. like a grand parent, slow. but each thing he says is pretty profound, if you can understand it... Not all of it may make sense, not all of it is supposed to, its not relevant to the “what is you?” you are currently living.. ENJOY this one.

~Omar / Ramo / db

The Power of Your Own Light

#satsang #spirituality #mooji

— a happy spirit

hi erika, lol. enjoyed the deep ass conversation my friend.


1930's ish.

Can we take one thing at a time and somewhat go into it? First, you lay a great deal of emphasis on the individual, but is not collective action necessary?” The individual is essentially the collective, and society is the creation of the individual. The individual and society are interrelated, are they not? They are not separate. The individual builds the structure of society, and society or environment shapes the individual. Though environment conditions the individual, he can always free himself, break away from his background. The individual is the maker of the very environment to which he becomes a slave; but he has also the power to break away from it and create an environment that will not dull his mind or spirit. The individual is important only in the sense that he has the capacity to free himself from his conditioning and understand reality. Individuality that is merely ruthless in its own conditioning builds a society whose foundations are based on violence and antagonism. The individual exists only in relationship, otherwise he is not; and it is the lack of understanding of this relationship that is breeding conflict and confusion. If the individual does not understand his relationship to people, to property, and to ideas or beliefs, merely to impose upon him a collective or any other pattern only defeats its own end. To bring about the imposition of a new pattern will require so-called mass action; but the new pattern is the invention of a few individuals, and the mass is mesmerized by the latest slogans, the promises of a new utopia. The mass is the same as before, only now it has new rulers, new phrases, new priests, new doctrines. This mass is made up of you and me, it is composed of individuals; the mass is fictitious, it is a convenient term for the exploiter and the politician to play with. The many are pushed into action, into war, and so on, by the few; and the few represent the desires and urges of the many. It is the transformation of the individual that is of the highest importance, but not in terms of any pattern. Patterns always condition, and a conditioned entity is always in conflict within himself and so with society. It is comparatively easy to substitute a new pattern of conditioning for the old; but for the individual to free himself from all conditioning is quite another matter. “This requires careful and detailed thought, but I think I am beginning to understand it. You lay emphasis on the individual, but not as a separate and antagonistic force within society. Now the second point. I have always worked for an ideal, and I don’t understand your denial of it. Would you mind going into this problem?” Our present morality is based on the past or the future, on the traditional, or the what ought to be. The what ought to be is the ideal in opposition to what has been, the future in conflict with the past. Nonviolence is the ideal, the what should be; and the what has been is violence. The what has been projects the what should be; the ideal is homemade, it is projected by its own opposite, the actual. The antithesis is an extension of the thesis; the opposite contains the element of its own opposite. Being violent, the mind projects its opposite, the ideal of nonviolence. It is said that the ideal helps to overcome its own opposite; but does it? Is not the ideal an avoidance, an escape from the what has been, or from what is? The conflict between the actual and the ideal is obviously a means of postponing the understanding of the actual, and this conflict only introduces another problem which helps to cover up the immediate problem. The ideal is a marvelous and respectable escape from the actual. The ideal of nonviolence, like the collective utopia, is fictitious; the ideal, the what should be, helps us to cover up and avoid what is. The pursuit of the ideal is the search for reward. You may shun the worldly rewards as being stupid and barbarous, which they are; but your pursuit of the ideal is the search for reward at a different level, which is also stupid. The ideal is a compensation, a fictitious state which the mind has conjured up. Being violent, separate, and out for itself, the mind projects the gratifying compensation, the fiction which it calls the ideal, the utopia, the future, and vainly pursues it. That very pursuit is conflict, but it is also a pleasurable postponement of the actual. The ideal, the what should be, does not help in understanding what is; on the contrary, it prevents understanding. “Do you mean to say that our leaders and teachers have been wrong in advocating and maintaining the ideal?” What do you think? “If I understand correctly what you say—” Please, it is not a matter of understanding what another may say, but of finding out what is true. Truth is not opinion; truth is not dependent on any leader or teacher. The weighing of opinions only prevents the perception of truth. Either the ideal is a homemade fiction which contains its own opposite, or it is not. There are no two ways about it. This does not depend on any teacher, you must perceive the truth of it for yourself. “If the ideal is fictitious, it revolutionizes all my thinking. Do you mean to say that our pursuit of the ideal is utterly futile?” It is a vain struggle, a gratifying self-deception, is it not? “This is very disturbing, but I am forced to admit that it is. We have taken so many things for granted that we have never allowed ourselves to observe closely what is in our hand. We have deceived ourselves, and what you point out upsets completely the structure of my thought and action. It will revolutionize education, our whole way of living and working. I think I see the implications of a mind that is free from the ideal, from the what should be. To such a mind, action has a significance quite different from that which we give it now. Compensatory action is not action at all, but only a reaction—and we boast of
action! But without the ideal, how is one to deal with the actual, or with the what has been?” The understanding of the actual is possible only when the ideal, the what should be, is erased from the mind; that is, only when the false is seen as the false. The what should be is also the what should not be. As long as the mind approaches the actual with either positive or negative compensation, there can be no understanding of the actual. To understand the actual you must be in direct communion with it; your relationship with it cannot be through the screen of the ideal, or through the screen of the past, of tradition, of experience. To be free from the wrong approach is the only problem. This means, really, the understanding of conditioning, which is the mind. The problem is the mind itself, and not the problems it breeds; the resolution of the problems bred by the mind is merely the reconciliation of effects, and that only leads to further confusion and illusion. “How is one to understand the mind?” The way of the mind is the way of life—not the ideal life, but the actual life of sorrow and pleasure, of deception and clarity, of conceit and the pose of humility. To understand the mind is to be aware of desire and fear. “Please, this is getting a bit too much for me. How am I to understand my mind?” To know the mind, must you not be aware of its activities? The mind is only experience, not just the immediate, but also the accumulated. The mind is the past in response to the present, which makes for the future. The total process of the mind has to be understood. “Where am I to begin?” From the only beginning: relationship. Relationship is life; to be is to be related. Only in the mirror of relationship is the mind to be understood, and you have to begin to see yourself in that mirror. “Do you mean in my relationship with my wife, with my neighbor, and so on? Is that not a very limited process?” What may appear to be small, limited, if approached rightly, reveals the fathomless. It is like a funnel, the narrow opens into the wide. When observed with passive watchfulness, the limited reveals the limitless. After all, at its source the river is small, hardly worth noticing. “So I must begin with myself and my immediate relationships.” Surely. Relationship is never narrow or small. With the one or with the many, relationship is a complex process, and you can approach it pettily, or freely and openly. Again, the approach is dependent on the state of the mind. If you do not begin with yourself, where else will you begin? Even if you begin with some peripheral activity, you are in relationship with it, the mind is the center of it. Whether you begin near or far, you are there. Without understanding yourself, whatever you do will inevitably bring about confusion and sorrow. The beginning is the ending. “I have wandered far afield. I have seen and done many things, I have suffered and laughed like so many others, and yet I have had to come back to myself. I am like that sannyasi who set out in search of truth. He spent many
years going from teacher to teacher, and each pointed out a different way. At last he wearily returned to his home, and in his own house was the jewel! I see how foolish we are, searching the universe for that bliss which is to be found only in our own hearts when the mind is purged of its activities. You are perfectly right. I begin from where I started. I begin with what I am.”

— a happy spirit

This is interesting.


— a happy spirit

something about the smooth muscle...

i forget need to look this up when i see this.

— a happy spirit

part of a bigger thing being written,

but part of a thing that applies to other things- read: your life too, in some way.

This is a thought fragment- where-in I was writing part of my book , about my life- and happened upon an important common thread.

herein is the paste, if you can't see it you're not meant to read it yet,

:D yessir. i am literally just pondering the bio-chemistry of it, to confirm what i am seeing is what i am seeing.

because (for the last 14 years) i have had a sinus infection draining into my stomach holding my throat open.

(due to a car accident, getting jumped by four people, having to move an apartment entirely by myself and packing a 40 ft uhaul then driving it 500 miles and unpacking it all by myself.

lol so i basically got walking pneumonia from the complications from the rib injuries from the accident, and then re injured myself while moving, and yeah man.

never do that but i dont think this is a worry for you. lol

i literally feel healthier in the past 3 – 4 months day to day than I have felt day to day in the past 12 years prior. That is incredible progress, and literally is enough to make me cry daily, and I am blown away. I have worked day in and day out for nearly 12 years except days where I knew it would kill me to continue and my body needed a break.

#this has been hard won.

im good now, and my blood pressure has dropped to levels i dont even remember being able to feel, experience, or recall, i have been coughing out gently a brown putty that looks like silicon caulk, and feeling so goddamn relieved each time its like i just climaxed,

and drinking plenty of fluid, and getting plenty of rest.

i had no idea i was this sick for so long, and i am so beyond fucking blessed and fucking grateful to the spirit of not only the cannabis plant, but everything conspiring since 2005 to keep me alive, including my interminable will.

life is fucking crazy sometimes.

we have to keep going.

there are two kinds of people on this earth-

those who give up, and those who push beyond their limitations and mortal fear of death – to find new heights of creativity , to solve what we feared were our unsolvable dillemmas.

it is this character building, this experience, of having to do it yourself, of really having to get in there and shit- that for me makes the difference between someone who understands and can perhaps some day help someone else, and someone who is perhaps either not getting it yet, or using something like money, or worse, other people as a tool to accomplish the need their shortcoming creates, and has not been learnt by the person yet.

this is a thought in progress, like most of the things i am writing, but it is complete enough, and important enough, that i feel comfortable sharing this fragment with you.

its not done yet, please dont ask me about this- just wait for the finished thing, unless you have something to add.

one thing is for certain

i wake up happy now, for the first time (” “) in 12 years, daily now, instead of laying there for an hour or so in sheer amazement that I did not perish and die in the night.

and i cannot tell you how happy that makes me.

— a happy spirit

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